This time round we thought we would do things a little different in the 2 week wait (2ww)
- I took the full 10 days off work to avoid getting stressed at work
- Everyday I spent 5 minutes repeating a mantra given to me by the priest for good luck
- I really took things easy this time!
The 10 days were a rollercoaster ride. Emotions were high low high low and I find you can’t resist symptom spotting!
Day 1-3
Evening of day 1, whilst lying on the sofa I had a sharp pain in my tummy. Not sure if this is a good or bad? Other than that between day 1-3 I was looking out for implantation bleeding, as I read that many women get this ( but also many don’t!). No bleeding, no other pain, nothing…… hopefully this is a good sign?
Day 4-6
I started to have odd feelings/twinges/ cramps in my tummy area. Especially on the sides. I kept myself stress-free with home improvements, cleaning, going out for afternoon tea and spending time at my parents.
Hubby and I went for fish and chips one afternoon, that evening I was sick. Not sure if this was due to the food I had eaten or the meds…..
Day 7-8
Anxiety started to kick in. I started to count the remaining days left. In terms of body feelings. Dare I say it… I felt pregnant.! My stomach was bloated/big, I had odd feelings in my tummy, sore boobs, I was having dreams of being a mum. I’ve had no bleeding yet too. All good signs….. could this be the positive result we have been meaning for?!
Or, are these symptoms of the meds I am on. Who knows!
Day 9
I think hubbys anxiety also started to kick in here. Before going to work in the morning, he had a nose bleed, and then later that morning he rang to say he was coming home as he had an accident. My heart sank.. thankfully it was only a small accident, he sprained his wrist.
Both of us were home, feeling very anxious but very positive for our result tomorrow. We talked ourselves into talking a pregnant test. Something we know, we shouldn’t do!
I took the test, and it had a very faint positive line. Both of us had huge smiles on our faces but we told ourselves to hold any excitement until our official result tomorrow. We also told ourselves this could be a false positive because of the meds I am. We both had hope, and that night I didn’t sleep at all. I started thinking about our baby nursery, my baby shower, life as parents, due dates, informing friends and family…… my mind was working overtime!
Day 10 – Blood test 1
Results day! This day felt like waiting for your exam results. Heart racing, feeling sick, loss of appetite, lump in the back of your throat. I had everything going on!
In the morning, just after putting in the pessaries I had brown discharge. Is this the end? is this the start of my period? I told hubby and he was like ‘oh no, that’s not good I think’.
I went in for a blood test early in the morning and then waiting for a call between 3-5pm to inform us of our results. Hubby was home for the whole day.
To avoid clock watching I spent the day with my mum shopping and having lunch out. However I had a really bad headache. I got home before 3pm so hubby and I could take the results call today.
At 3:40 we had the call. The nurse informed us that it was neither positive or negative I was in the grey area. Trust this to happen to us again ( this happened through IVF round 1 too). My HCG level was 19 and it needed to be 50 or above to be positive. She advised we did another blood test in 2 days time and hope that numbers double to be positive. I asked the nurse the likelihood of this happening and she said ‘I’m not going to lie, 19 is very low , I would prepare yourself for worst case’.
Hubby and I were absolutely devastated. All our world came crashing down at once. It really really sucks. We were heartbroken 😦
Day 12 – Blood test 2
Got my result and it’s confirmed negative :(. It didn’t work… again.
Even thought we knew 2 days ago it was a negative we still had a bit hope that it still may have worked but no…. it definately didn’t.
Feeling really really low, but now determined to get fit and prepare for the next round in a couple of months. We are signing up to the gym on the weekend, going to start eating healthy again and book a mini break away too…..
Who knows what round will work for us… but hopefully it will be soon. We really thought time it would work… 😦
Annie's IVF Journey 